”What Am I Doing Here?”

-

Does this thought ‘what am I doing here’ ever occur to you?

What is its indication?

I assume that many people get struck by such question, consciously or unconsciously- be it a relationship you are in, work you do, place you are at, and a situation you are in. The thought pops up in your mind particularly when things turn rough. Everything seems ambiguous and leaves one spaced out with disturbing thoughts and feelings so severe as if carrying the world on one’s shoulder. Physically fatigued and emotionally bogged down, one doesn’t seem to find pleasure in the task at hand. The time spent is meaningless and torpid one becomes all the time. Every day one feels under the weather. There isn’t any odor of joy. It imbues one with an urge to do something crazy or to go to a faraway place in pursuit of peace. It feels like the whole world is against one when such plight comes throbbing your heart.

However, it is not a dead end. It is only a rough period of life that passes by. Being objectively reflective about it will free us from such entanglement. You just need to close your eyes and see through your still mind the daily humdrum of your life, and there you will achieve the enlightenment of your situation. In that realization, you will find that you are at the wrong place- a place where you feel devalued, demotivated, and dispirited. You are unhappy there. Maybe what you are doing isn’t satisfying for you. You don’t find it rewarding and that doesn’t help you produce dopamine- so dysphoric you become. You can’t leave it either because of financial security it guarantees or skepticism that you would never find another job. You are comfortable there, yet unhappy. As long as you are in that comfort zone, your growth is compromised and discontent your heart shall always remain.

Maybe it is a toxic relationship that is smothering you. The reason you are sleepless and worn-out. In there your stress heightened and pleasure minimized. You do not seem to enjoy a day with your mind preoccupied with conflicting thoughts- what if this and that. Indubitably the matrimonial life is blessing but the union with a wrong person could be devastating. The bond isn’t working, still both the parties stick together through hatred, humiliation and ridicule against each other for various reasons such as children, social dignity, security, sympathy and false hope, disregarding the long-term repercussions of such unhealthy relationship.

Likewise, there must be other reasons that make you feel like a hostage in that situation- powerless and simply wishing for exoneration from the worldly struggle. Too long a stay in that place will devour you and find yourself in the emotional abyss. Don’t just wait for the destiny to flip a page of your life expecting a fluke. You got to gather your courage and make a rational decision to fix the predicament. If boulder on your way is movable, move it. If not, you go the other way around without your time and energy squandered on something unresolvable. For instance, if you resent what you are doing, explore and hunt for what you love doing. There are hundreds of things to do at your disposal. It is never too late to start over something anew. Remember ‘If there is will, there is a way’. A true wonder of life lies in living it with purpose.  

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

When I'm Gone...

-
Smile at me with those beautiful lips, Talk to me I insist when I am close, But be careful of words you speak That may stretch us apart and ruin The splendor we see in being us; Like me and ne’er let me weep, And every day I plead make my day And I swear I’ll make yours; Let no fury or disgust swab our smiles, But with harmony let’s our bond be adorned For ephemeral our life is which, I beseech, we shall spend through delight; ‘Cause when I’m gone and no more you'd see me, Unheard your words shall only fade away, Unfelt your warmth shall just cool away And chained-up your rueful soul shall remain. So hide not but bare your heart out, Show that truly you care for me, That you respect and adore me For the person I am, and talk me Into believing every word you say, ‘Cause when I’m gone and you’d miss me, Beyond your reach I’d have gone and Unheard your words shall only fade away, Unfelt your warmth shall just cool away, And chained-
Read more

The Almighty King

-
God in disguise, a pure soul of divinity, No wonder the bona fide progeny of God you’re, The great one highly esteemed for visionary you’re, So genial and benign, no man as you exists so munificent; The Grace, all hearts’ desire and the beacon, Pray hundred more years you live on for the sake of A million souls’ peace and wellbeing you care for. So appeasing just your sight is, the balm to despair, Joyous eyes’ grandeur and love of all hearts, At all times hallowed thou shall remain and recalled, Even the threat‘d sway no man against thee ‘Cause almighty you’re, the optimal clout beholder. In you, our hope and assurance we perceive, Ideal we see in you to emulate, your greatness, Flame to our shadowed lives and succor in plight, You ne’er let the famine creep in and starve us, No evil you let it destroy our harmony And no bloodshed you let our lives be taken, But wishes fulfilled and smiles brought upon, Bestowal of happiness upon us your d
Read more

Hope On

-
Like the seasonal snowflakes, Pain is fairly short-lived and there is joy to relish soon Like the summer rain, Opportunities in profusion- grasp them accordingly; Like the mighty Mt. Everest, Remain impervious no matter how intense the storm is; You’re the victor since you were in the mother’s womb, Who won the race to the human world; You’re the invincible warrior since childhood, Bold and undefeated, the one who resisted All woes and foes of life and still battling; You’re the joy-giver whose mere existence Brings jovial smiles upon many faces- Don’t let your decision wipe the smile off their faces; You’re the guardian of your life, protect it; You’re the adornment of your life, embellish it; You’re the soul of your life, love it no matter how tough it gets For there is certainly a light at the end of the tunnel!
Read more